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For a month.
I think thats long enough for me to give another chance. For me at least.
The first time i join this site, a man warn me saying “u should find someone in your country, in this site they will play you” thank you for that advice. i will keep that in mind.
But of course the intention is clear as to why i ended up here in the first place. I don’t come for a fling. Though i’m looking for the right one i’m not as well in that extreme state of desperation. But coming out from several broken relationship makes me feel that i’m not worth for anyone and getting ready to just move on and forget about starting a family. And having a nice bestfriend who keeps giving me inputs of positivities makes me feel like i want to try again for one last time in this field of life-goals. So here i am, filling out this form with trembling fingers unsure of where this will soon leads to. But only for one month. I will delete this account after one month. Whether i find someone or not. 28th March to be exact.
This will be my last hope of finding the one. I know it may sound stupid but i’ve tried a lot so far yet ended up failing all the time. so if this one too does not bring me anywhere near marriage then i guess its time for me to wrap up and start to shift my concern from finding Mr. Partner to finding ways of surviving to live alone without one and push that rehda button.
Introducing self is never easy so i’m not sure how and where i should start first. But surely i can start by saying firstly thank you for those who care to read this long text of my ‘self introduction’.
First to mention is, im not British though i can tell that many users here are of British citizen. With 8 hours time difference and miles apart i know its sound like a big gap but to be honest i don’t believe in physical border. So, for me there will be no problem of getting to know each other by talking virtually before finally decides to meet up. But at some point, there needs to be a meet up of course because otherwise this will just be a ‘stupid internet fairytales’. But for how soon i will agree to meet up will depend on how fast i trust you to not be that unresponsible man who will not abuse me in any manner.
I love books and literature. I wrote poems sometimes and i enjoy reading others as well. Though i don’t hold on to one particular poets, i enjoy all poem by any writers. Be it someone who is well known like Rumi or anyone who’s just some random unknown poeters from unknown corners of the world. I enjoy embroidery too. I love cross-stitching my own Quraanic Verse to held on my walls. I love movie, but i dont really like actions though sometimes i watch it too. I don’t deny i love romantic movie (being a girl who doesn’t) but i particularly enjoy watching movies like ‘Da Vinci Code’, ‘Life of Pi’, the latest ‘The Greatest Showman’. I know some people would believe watching movies are a waste of time but i think there are a lot of things we can acually learn by watching movies, not just from the movies itself but what your mind learn about life once you’re off the cinema.
I like travelling too. I love seeing new places and usually i can be quite spontaneous on that because most time i would suddenly decide as quick as overnight and suddenly i’m already on it the next morning. My best travelling partner is my brother. We love to do it on wheels most time and usually didn’t even know what to expect ahead of us. Though i love travelling so much I have to highlight that I HATE TYPICAL SHOPPING ON A TOURIST HUB LUXURIOUS PLACES kind of travel coz that would bore me so much. For me, shopping is shopping, travel just can’t blend together with it. Travel for me is, backpacking, road-trip to wherever wheels take us, see the scenery, photo/video snapping of the beautiful places be it man-made landmark to the beauty of Allah’s creation, i would spend money for museum entrance tickets or any parks that needs entrance fee. If there is shopping during that trip that would usually be book shopping (usually while i wait for others to satisfy their shopping needs), otherwise that will definitely bores me.
I may sound like an active ‘tomboy’ girl who love adventure but to be honest i’m not into sport so much, i didn’t play anything, i didn’t even know or interested in any sport games. i’m just that kind of “kaki bangku” person who stay on the sides watching people chasing that single ball thinking so puzzled about how the game goes.
Bahasa Melayu is my first language and English second. I do understand a little bit of Urdu/Hindi but not fluently. I can read and write arabic but i won’t be able to understand the meaning.
As for profession, i am just a simple assistant teacher of disabled children. i worked with children of aged 5-12. i don’t want to put much info about it here, i can explain about it during conversation.
While i do love cooking i find baking as more enjoyable to do. I cook for myself everyday but i can not really say i’m expert in that but i do know how to prepare dish to the table. InshaAllah it wont bring much disappointment unless the person is a picky eater. But i must say i’m in love with pasta dish so most time spaghetti and pasta seems to be my staple food. Though sometimes i like to prepare Couscous and sometimes Biriyani, but i don’t cook it as much as pasta. But generaly cooking and baking is one of my favourite girly activity that i enjoy doing so much so trying out new recipes is never a bored job for me.
I guess one of the most important thing i should mention here is i don’t like cosmetic and i don’t like to apply any makeup or beauty products on my face. and i kind of having allergies to strong perfumes. So i can not really help it if you really want me to apply some coz, it will just never work for me.
Perhaps thats it for now and i think that is already quite a lot of intro in a section of ‘a little bit’. So i guess if u are interested to know me more u will then contact me.
“Just a partner in everything”
Thats the keyword. I believe thats all about it in marriage life. If he’s about to go south while i go north then there is no point of tying the knot then. Bahasa Melayu phrase will called it “kebersamaan”, togetherness. In everything. At least when we disagree upon anything, and couldnt find a middle solution of it, we can compromise and accept to finally “agree to disagree” and live harmony in it. As long as its not Morally wrong, or Islamically wrong.
And of course, the one who is real and ready. As i said earlier i am not looking for a fling. So an offer like “come here i will provide with things and u can live in my house” kind of stuff will definitely turn me off coz i’m not looking for a one night stand or (season night stand?). And please, what kind of man are you to invite a lady to stay in your home without marriage.
Im looking for halal life-partner who is ready to become a partner as a whole. A companion-lover-bestfriend-protector-father of future child. Not just a leader of a household but a housemate who works together building a family.
Of course having knowledge in our religion is a must but i prefer kindness and having humanity more than just knowing whats halal whats haram. Coz i believe we don’t have to be muslim first in order to be kind and humane, but if if we practice it from what Islam have thought us to do, using the manuals given to us (Quraan) in a right way, i believe we will definitely turn to be the most amazing person with good Akhlak.
In the end, its not about how many verses of Quraan you can memorize, but how many things Quraan teach that we are able to understand and implement.
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